I dont think Ive ever been soo depressed in my entire life. My life is seriously a rollcoaster, I have my highs and real lows. We say we're friends, but it tis not easy just to put away the feelings I have always had for her. It kills me. I think its great she keeps in touch wit her past significant others cuz its important not to forget the past. I enjoy visiting her and looking at old dance pictures she keeps in her room. She looks soooo happy, and I have this content feeling of being really happy whenever she is. How lucky can these guys be? I ask myself. I know she will never look at me the same way she has with other guys before. Maybe I'm just trying to hard? All I know is if I cant share my love with her I don't want to share it with anyone else.